Sunday, June 03, 2007

my eye candies

they make my heart skip a beat. haa!
arent they all so handsome?
ooh.. lovely lovely. *swoons*


































The Holy Trinity Sunday

02 June 2007 - Alison's wedding

Church wedding service at Holy Grace Church along East Coast Rd.
the pastor, i must say, young and dynamic. i was impressed with his homily.
the parable/story he chose frm the bible was the first sign that Jesus performed in His life at the wedding in Cana.

last evening during mass, Fr. John Chua's homily was truly smthg to think abt.
this weekend is Holy Trinity Sunday. God the father, Son - our Lord Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.
they make up The Holy Trinity.
God knew we man were born to be tangible creatures. therefore he chose Mary to give birth to a human, Jesus. God in human form. the one and only baby born without original sin.
as we know, we cant see God, for if we do see God we will die. so how do we know that God truly exists? my experience with God started back in primary sch. as young as i was. i always thot it was so nice to be at mass. all the students will gather in the hall and the priest will be there to celebrate mass. it was nt only an escape frm class time. but also a time to know more abt God.
morning prayers and hymns sung after recess. altho i nvr quite understood its significance. i did however know tt it was somewhat sacred. like a special time.

as we all know, the Christian faith is indeed mystical.
it is smthg that is beyond science and all human logic and understanding.
how does one call himself a Christian den?

is it jus pure faith?
there are some pple who really go all out to find out the truth about Christianity and the facts behind the mystery.
however, God is really infinite. he's so "big" and complex.
so how does anyone propose he/she finds out ALL abt Him?

books can only tell you so much, wad abt real life accounts/experiences?
we learn in school that our text books and 10yr series are just practices and guide books.
we still need to go thru the whole process of creative learning and sit thru our exams by ourselves. only then can we really say that we've experienced wad it's like to sit for PSLE or O Levels isnt it?

life is always abt experiences. books arent everything. they arent the gospel truth.
ironic isnt it? sometimes some pple are jus too logical therefore they cant comprehend the immense information abt the Christian faith. it just seems too illogical to them.
these are the kind of pple that needs the real life experience with God.
in fact the truth is i believe most of us do.

seeing is believing. that's wad Thomas said.
but wad God wants us to know is Believing is seeing.
how many of us can truly do that?
i can safely say for myself that i do not know much abt Jesus, his miracles or his life story. i shud be quite ashamed of myself in tt aspect. fancy calling myself a Christian/Catholic but i hardly pray the rosary, read the bible or lead a very Christ-like life.
but wad i do hold true to myself is my experiences with God.
thru my brokeness, happiness, sadness, weeping and growing. He's the only one that's been constant. God has worked wonders in my life. just when i thot all hope is gone. He'll always be there to lend a helping hand and see me thru wadever ordeal i might be facing in life.
i believe that God doesnt give us challenges in life too great for us to handle.
all we need to do is believe in Him and pray to Him. seek guidance and wisdom from above.
prayers can move mountains. but do you believe?

why must man be so selfish? why do we have to be so full of ourselves?
why do most of us find it so hard to swallow our own pride?
if Jesus can be so humble, why cant we? really, why cant we?
why do we scold others, blame others or get angry?
remember that when u point a finger at others, 4 other fingers are pointing right back at yourself.

pride, greed, anger, resentment, bitterness, unforgiveness, vengefulness, hatred, hurt, grief, selfishness.
do u possess any of these in your heart?
if u do, it is time to let it/them go.
when you have all these in your heart, you definately have no room for God.
it is only when u know how to love and respect yourself, then only can u share this love and respect with others.
everyone suffers setbacks in life. both great and small. but remember, wadever doesnt kill us, makes us stronger. we will always come out a stronger person.
once we are at peace with our inner being, we will be at peace with others.
slowly but surely.

the journey of self-discovery is long and arduous.
but it is up to us to see ourself thru it.

dont live ur life for others.
live it for yourself, so that others can see and know that you make a difference.

guess who's back!



announcing the arrival of my cuzy john. he arrive Spore ard 6am on 2 June just to make it in time for his sister's wedding! how sweet! best part is he's having his exams the following monday!

all the best cuz! God will make a way for u i'm sure.

he is the silly-est ding dong in the entire universe who loves to humiliate me! -_-

Monday, May 28, 2007

Claud's birthday

date: friday - 25 may 2007
destination: Holland V
agenda: Claudia's birthday
but the following pix are random.. taken when i was erm.. bored? haa.
but look at the family of beers! so cute rite the glasses! :) esp the baby heineken!










on the left is baby heineken. it is apparently half pint.




































extreme left is half pint erdinger. happy family.

Volleyball Tournament at Siloso

thursday - 24 May 2007
Thanks to dearest cuzy, she bought us tickets to catch the tournament at Siloso beach.
part bonding part watching part tanning part bitching session.
haha. our usual...
so here are some random shots i caught during the exciting match between Cuba and Italy.
i must say it was an experience to be there.. just catching a live tournament.
actually i shud go catch a local soccer match.. maybe tampines rovers vs SAF or smthg? =X haa.
it will be cool im sure. smthg different.. :)




yup so thanks cuz for this volleyball watching experience! =o)













Cuba vs. Italy!
























































Saturday, May 26, 2007

paging for...

*ting tong*
this is an announcement service...
if u have ANY lost and found enquiries or require ANY general information,
pls call Lydia at any time, on any day.
she will be at your service at no extra charge and no service fee!
thank you for your kind attention. have a good day!
*ting tong*

HR Grp Assignment

so apparently SIM released our HR group assignment results yesterday...
and as usual, my trusty efficient buddy uncle chan, checked it before i did,
even tho i faithfully log into my student portal everyday to ensure that i see the results firsthand.
thanks alex. ure so effi la!

yup. so anyway. the grade wasnt wad i expected.
it is still better den nthg.

nonetheless, great job guys!
thanks for the hard work and effort!

now i can only hope my overall wont be as disappointing.
*keeping my fingers crossed*

Thursday, May 24, 2007

cuzy grace

dedicated to my dearest cousin Grace

this cousin of mine is not merely just a cousin,
she is also my pillar of strength, best friend, confidante, soul mate,
cheerleader, partner-in-crime, study buddy, school mate, neighbour, supper-scouts,
food-loving partner, shopping associate, beach bum, bright sunshine.
the chemistry and telepathy we share is exclusively ours.
such camaraderie is specially unique. one of its kind. rare.
nuff said. she has been, is and will always be a big part of me.

Cuzy, here's to a great life ahead!



Monday, May 21, 2007

Cheers to Dan

here's to our 11th year of friendship babe!
thanks for always being there for me.
esp thru all the whining and crying,
kicking and fussing,
outings and smokings,
scoldings and screamings,
nagging and crapping,
lateness and rushing/copying homework,
bitching and bad chinese,
copying 'ting xie'/'mo xie',
days at the coffeeshop and blk 51,
hanging out at parkway, TM, town wif the AC boys,
chalets and late nites,
pubs and clubs,
drinking and singing,
guiding days and campfires,
teenage angst and rashness,
being naive and silly,
cursing and swearing,
throwing chairs and banging tables & doors,
boys and toys,
relationships and problems,
cheerleading and dancing,
making a nuisance of ourselves,
birthday parties and presents,
the list goes on... haa.
babe, this is what 11 yrs of frenship has brought us thru.
i love you!



from truly UNGLAM days of yester yrs,








with john at the background always acting cool,









along with our dearest Prisssss!













to where we are now... look at that... how loving we are!
Dan, thanks for our 11 years of friendship.
you'll always be a very dear friend of mine. always.

Grand Canyon


Some pictures I took at the Grand Canyon. was trying to maximise the memory space, thus the low resolution and heavily pixelised quality... but just thought i'd share the magnificent Grand Canyon sights with everyone...











in awe of the canyon's beauty and colours, i stood before it speechless while wintry winds breezed past. the wondrous work of nature in all its glory. i couldnt be more thankful for the opportunity to be there.














Boston

another one of a more commonly played song tt i've been listening to:

Boston by Augustana

in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston, i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name...

uncanny isnt it?

heart of the matter

the lyrics of this song speaks for itself.
expressive and thought evoking.

Heart of The Matter by Don Henley

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined ...
People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore


I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

Saturday, May 19, 2007

music & lyrics

when both are combined, they bring about immense amounts of emotions.

Friday, May 18, 2007

17 May 2007

A 1129.

Monday, May 14, 2007

the end of 'for one more day'

i've finished reading "for one more day"
i love the story. i love the way its written.
and i'm glad i read it.
this is the first book that i've completed reading this fast.

now that i'm done with this book. it is now something to think about.

wonder what my next book shall be...

prayer on tree

carve a prayer on a tree, because trees spend all day looking up at God.

Mitch Albom's 'for one more day' has indeed made me blink back tears of nostalgia.
this third book of his that i'm reading hasnt failed me touch my heart and soul.
it helps keep me rooted in the belief of a mother's eternal love for her child.
it is so heart warming and wrenching as it speaks truth of how children even during the 60s treat their parents. esp their mums. it is evidently so up till today.
teenagers get embarrassed by their mums. at some point in time, we wished we never had parents or mums to nag at us. because we fail to understand their importance. as kids, we often stick to our parents as a source of comfort and familiarity..
as we move on to becoming teenagers, we seek to find our own identity, friends, boyfrens, groups. we crave for attention by outsiders and peers.
then we progress on to becoming late teens.. story of our lives...
as we age in our life cycle, inevitably, we gain increasing amounts of responsibility, pressure and stress. from both internally and externally. and of cos parents are always such nags. they always think they know whats best for you. but the truth is, they sometimes fail miserably at trying to be objective. that sucks. because it just frustrates us and makes us angry.
but like i said... story of our lives.
just make the most of it.

peace to you.

Friday, May 11, 2007

stars

i wish i could be lying on a field staring up into the midnight sky of stars and moon,
along with the soft, comforting dewy smell of the night,
to help me unwind and be at peace with myself and my surroundings.

if only the human mind could be a tad less complex.
being simple minded should not be something that today's society frowns upon.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

far far away

could someone take me away from this place?

Saturday, May 05, 2007

wad a pain.

even my mum is being a pain at home.
wad is wrong man?
is it really murphy's law at work here?

why do i always have to take the fall when it's not even my fault?
i hate it.

i hate being blamed for things i didnt do.

i hate her attitude.
why do i deserve that? i didnt even do anything!
stay home also wrong, go out also wrong.
wad the f*** la seriously.
i'm so sick of all these.
it's so frustrating.

cant pple talk nicely anymore?
wad is with the 'whole jumping to conclusions before finding out the truth'?
its damn annoying do u noe that?

den again who cares. my mum sure as hell doesnt.

messed up.

i feel terribly messed up.
like a part of me is just seriously wrong.
it's not about wallowing in self-pity.
but it's more abt facing up to it.
i duno why i can never seem to get it right.
i need to be strong, i need to be positive.
but can i really?
i face my fears with uncertainty and paranoia.
i always seem upset or frustrated about smthg.
why have i become like this?
i feel so down. so negative. so low morale. so low everything.
i'm just so tired. perhaps not to the brink of giving up on life but jus generally tired.
i duno wads right anymore.
i dun want to care wad others think or judgements others have to pass.
i'm jus gonna be who i am right now.
everyone's gotta be selfish sometimes. maybe. i duno.

i'm sorry to have hurt people in the process of my self-discovery.
i'm sorry all these have to happen.
i jus need to learn.
i'm sorry i have to be so selfish.
you know this isnt easy for me.
i'm sorry but i just have to go thru this. alone. perhaps. i duno.
den again. wad do i know..?
i'm sorry i screwed up.
i'm sorry to mess things up.
i jus duno who i am anymore.